I never did get to that meeting last night. Wasn’t feeling up to driving over there- they didn’t really need me there, just the numbers I had, so I emailed them over along with my cell number for questions (which there were, so maybe I should have gone after all. )

Feh. I really felt lousy, but feel ok today- seems to be a pattern. I need to get myself out of this funk I’ve been in- need to eat better, workout, do something really fun.

I’m sick of winter. I’m feeling about 10 years older than I did six months ago (what is up with that?)

The whole point of this big organizing kick I went on was to free my up to do fun stuff. So why do still feel like I have too many little annoying things to do to enjoy myself? The smallest little chore feels oppressive. I find myself doing busywork instead of fun things. I really don’t need to pay bills today- the ones I have aren’t due for awhile and I have them scheduled to be paid after the next paycheck. So why am I sitting here with Quicken open? No good reason.

So I opened iTunes and found a bunch of new songs to grab (oh, the new Michael Stipe & Chris Martin In the Sun is amazing, and LISA- I bought a “country” song! Keith Urban (if he’s country I’m a 90 year old black woman…) I saw him on the Grammy’s last night and thought, you know, this is really like the stuff I loved as a teen- Eagles, Jackson Browne.

So now I’ve got the weirdest mix playing. Country, pop, emo, rock, alt. Fall Out Boy to Kelly Clarkson to Audioslave. I’m still not doing anything, really, but the soundtrack is really good.
And I feel a lot better.